I Can’t Rely on People
I didn’t decide one day that people weren’t reliable. It happened slowly. A moment here.A moment there. You reach for help and no one notices.You say something important and it gets brushed aside.You look for comfort and the person you need is distracted, overwhelmed, or somewhere else entirely. Nothing dramatic. Just enough small misses that […]
I Have to Stay Alert
I don’t remember deciding to stay alert. It just became the way I moved through the world. Pay attention to the room.Watch people’s faces.Listen for the shift in someone’s voice that means something is about to change. It felt responsible. It felt like maturity. If I stayed aware, I could adjust.If I adjusted quickly enough, […]
The Rules I Started Living By
I don’t remember sitting down and making decisions about how to survive. There was no meeting.No plan. But somewhere along the way, I started living by a set of rules. They weren’t spoken out loud.No one handed them to me. They formed quietly. If I stayed alert, things went smoother.If I handled things myself, I […]