The Sadness I Couldn’t See: Lung Imbalance and the Hidden Language of Grief
I never would have thought of myself as “grieving.” If you’d asked, I would have said I was restless. Nervous. Numb. Bored. I would have said that I didn’t feel much of anything. But I wouldn’t have called it grief. Not because it wasn’t there, but because I couldn’t see it. I’ve just begun to […]
Why Some People Can’t See the Truth (Even When It’s Right in Front of Them)
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about something that keeps happening—on the news, in discussions, and especially in online spaces. We watched January 6th happen on live TV—saw people attack the capital, break windows, and yell about hanging the Vice President. And yet, there are people who say it didn’t happen that way. That it […]
Maybe the Path Is the Content
I’ve been feeling a little disoriented lately. Not quite lost. Just… untethered. Like the direction I thought I was heading with this project has become unclear, and I’m lost in the fog trying to figure out what to do next. A part of me wants to keep pushing forward, to figure it out, and to […]
What Is Shen in Daoist and Chinese Healing?
The Light of Consciousness That Makes Us Who We Are. Sometimes, something inside you lights up. It might be quiet, like taking a deep breath in the middle of a busy day. Or it could be bright, like the excitement that comes over you when you feel fully seen. At that point, your eyes get […]
Returning to the Heart: Daoist Reflections on Childhood Trauma’s Deepest Wound
There was a time I didn’t know what was missing. I wasn’t exactly numb. But I still wasn’t living. Joy seemed to be something reserved for others. Stillness seemed out of reach. I could function—stay organized, finish tasks—but internally, I felt… all over the place. Disconnected. Like I was living apart from myself, not inside […]
The Seduction of Novelty, the Strength of Simplicity
A dream, a smoothie ride, and a quiet admonition to come back to the basics. Last night, I had a weird dream. I was in the gym working out with some guys I didn’t know. They were utilizing all these strange machines that looked more like props from a sci-fi movie than real fitness equipment. […]
When Evidence Isn’t Enough: Learning to Trust the Daoist Heart
Recently, I’ve been considering changing the course of my project—just a bit. Nothing extreme. But I’ve recognized something, something I can no longer overlook. The main concept behind Dao of Transforming Trauma has always been to investigate how Daoist therapeutic techniques might aid in recovery from childhood complex trauma. That’s still accurate. That’s still the […]
Why It All Comes Back to the Heart
To be honest, the thing I have spent most of my life looking for has not been love or happiness. It’s been meaning. Why am I here? What am I supposed to do? I never had clear answers. By the time I was born, it seems my father’s drinking was already fairly advanced and the […]
If I’m Not Helping, Do I Still Have Worth?
Unraveling the Trauma of Constantly Needing to Be Useful. Most of my life, I’ve felt as though I had to earn my place in the world. Not in any grand manner. Just in that subtle, tiring way that says, Be helpful. Be of use. Avoid occupying space. Don’t make it about you. I discovered early […]
Could Your Overeating Be a Way to Soothe Childhood Pain?
If you’ve battled overeating—or food in general—you’ve likely chastised yourself more often than you can count. Perhaps you’ve referred to yourself as undisciplined, weak, out of control.Maybe you’ve attempted to remedy it with calorie counting, meal plans, and diets… or shame.Perhaps none of it has had long-term effectiveness. There’s a reason for that. For many, […]