I’m always trying to get my shit together.
I make lists. I decide I’m going to get organized. I clean things up, catch up on what I’ve been putting off, and tell myself that this time I’m going to stay on top of things.
For a while, I do. Then somehow I’m behind again.
There are bills I forgot about. Emails I haven’t answered. Things I was supposed to make appointments for. Something in the house needs fixing. I have no idea where I put that thing I need.
None of it is particularly difficult. That’s what makes it so frustrating.
Other people seem to manage their lives. They remember things. They get things done. They don’t need to keep starting over.
I know I’m capable.
I just don’t understand why I can’t seem to get my shit together.